state of me

[ari_o]

OK, so I've gone from numb and overwhelmed to seriously pissed off. And my husband is being an asshat. I just tried to explain to him why I was so upset and he cut me off and told me to calm down and not get upset. That sent me off into outer orbit. Because

a) I am already extremely upset and I needed to express it.
b) I do not need my feelings invalidated thank you. I am tired of feeling like it is not OK for me to be angry. My father does this to me too. And I am sick of it. I'm sorry if you are threatened by angry women. Now get out of my way.
c) AGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

Recap of why I am so upset.

1. Period from hell started Tuesday
1a. My ankles are swollen like small watermelons. They hurt.
1b. Cramps
2. I fell and ripped all the skin of my knee on Tuesday. It still hurts.
3. The wank.

ETA: Husband provided me with chocolate ice cream and stawberries and I am much happier with him now. Nice David!

Comments

[ari-o.livejournal.com]

So far no. Apparently David doesn't care about me when I upset and he doesn't want to provide me with any emotional support at all.

Wow, this week keeps getting worse. I can't stop crying

[piperki.livejournal.com]

Maybe he just doesn't get this one thing, he's not going to, and you need to depend on us right now? Because sometimes they just don't GET things. That's why a person has girlfriends.

*pats*

[ari-o.livejournal.com]

No, it isnt just this. He just decided he ran out of empathy and sympathy after the kidney stone and now I am on my own. WTF?

For the first time I regret marrying him.

[piperki.livejournal.com]

Well, it probably won't be the last...how about if he gets out of your face for a while and goes out and recharges his batteries?

I'm flying blind here because I never ask mine for that kind of stuff...it doesn't come up. Sorry!

[ari-o.livejournal.com]

I just don't understand. I don't understand how you can't rely on yours emotionally. I don't understand why all of a sudden David is like, "too bad"

But I don't have anyone else around here and this is a little more than talking to people on the internet upset.

[piperki.livejournal.com]

I do rely on him, but it's just complicated. When I'm having a super rotten day I usually call one of my girlfriends and rant about it. I'm having a lot of work drama and angst right now and I've pretty much depended on two friends to advise and prop me up. He does know stuff is going on, and I know he is there for me, but we do not have a lot of direct conversations about the direct sources of my problems.

But you and I are not the same! What I want from him is different from what you're asking David for.